PinkAngel2017

Soo since Im trying to attract more readers, Im going to do 15 random things about me. 1.I have no interest in smoking or drinking. I have been around it all my life and have hated it. Everyone around me smoked constantly and now my mom had to have a valve replaced and other things all because of smoking. I hate how it consumes everything and i hate the smell of it. Drinking is about the same- these are 2 things I never got interested in. 2. I consider myself bisexual I came out as a lesbian many years ago and thought it fit until one day, after coming out, i realized I had feelings for a close guy friend of mine and another guy at work. Now im not out to anyone, but i have become more accepting of myself. 3.I freaken love Barry Manilow Most of the music on my ipod is barry manilow. I have a better day when I listen to a few of his songs, and right now, "the best seat in the house" is my favorite song. I would love to hear from other fanilows! 4.I am not religious in

Happy Holiday Season! 1. Are you celebrating or have you celebrated any holidays this December 2018? Just Christmas.. 2. Describe your typical holiday celebration. We go to my brother's house and hope like hell that they didn't invite people from the church..this year, they did and it was hell. 3. Now tell us how you really would like to spend your holiday season. Over at my brothers with just my mom, sister in law, sister and brother. No stupid people allowed. 4. This time of year broadcast TV is filled with Christmas movies. What is your favorite Christmas movie? I have too many to list! 5. Does your place of work do a gift exchange or secret santa? Do you participate? What gift did you buy to giveaway this year? What gift did you get? They have a holiday party and staff luncheon. There is a gift exchange and an ugly sweater party. I wasn't able to participate in the gift exchange this year. Bonus : Have you been naughty or nice? It depends on who you ask;) —

So just like a bag of Skittles, my submissive side comes in different colors...most of which i am learning about and some that just fascinate me. Let's see.. where to start? Red Skittles: this would include things I am fascinated by, but not sure I would actually try, but I have an interest so who knows. Yellow- This would be my switch side. I have come to realize that when i am mad at someone, i can picture them being tortured in a cage and with a leash on, or whipped until I feel better. Than, on the other side of that, i can see myself wearing a collar and being submissive to someone and doing as I'm told and asked. For many years and even when i was younger, i always hated when people were mad at me and i liked being pleasing when i was asked to do something. It has been like this in work as well. Im the type that am happy when i am told i did a good job and that people are pleased with what i did, or have been doing. Purple-i believe i have a little

So I am basically a female Sheldon Cooper... What I mean by that is... 1. I have my quirks and like things a certain way. 2. I was picked on all through school. 3. I have to know someone before I can really open up to them. 4. There are times when I just want to be by myself 5. I have various spots and routines that I don't like disrupted. 6.I hate change and like things to stay the same 7. I get very anxious before social events This is a starting point,  but its clear to me that I'm a female Sheldon cooper..

So I was reading some blogs and its weird, I can handle sex scenes in erotica,  but to read  about real life sex don't really do anything for me. I get turned on occasionally,  but not very often. When I think of being with someone,  there really isn't sex involved. I just have never thought of sleeping with someone and it wasn't until I was watching big bang theory and heard Howard talking about sexing up penny's roomate, that In a way it grossed me out to hear about it and its like I sometimes get uncomfortable watching sex scenes in movies. I think for me,  it all comes to the idea of getting to know someone first and then maybe think about sex. In a lot of ways,  I am a female Sheldon cooper. Basically I have to know and trust someone before I can become intimate or even think about it..but I'll elaborate more in the next blog post.. I have also been thinking, and a micromanaged kinky relationship isnt my cup of tea. I love reading about them in erotica,  but

Soo..i got a message from my girl crush asking if I'm interested in cat sitting for her... Of course i said i was and since then she has been on my mind... I'm waiting on a reply from her and since then, i keep picturing the inside of her house and her couch and for some reason my thoughts go kinky and here is just a peek into where my mind has been... "We are in her living room and her couch is white and really pretty and she has flowers all around,  and we are sitting on the couch and talking and then she starts getting closer to me and before i realize,  she is kissing my neck and after i realize what is happening,  i start kissing her and then she pushes me off her,  as i was on her lap,  and has me kneel in front of her.. She pauses for a minute and starts to take her shoes off and has me kiss her feet and then lick them... While i am busy with her feet,  she is talking to me and she pauses,  and reaches behind her and pulls out a pink velvet collar that has tiny

Soo in a month or so, i am going to be babysitting for my girl crush...i have been trying not to think about it because it will make me more anxious, but i was blown away when she asked me to babysit for 3 days...😇.. My thoughts have circled around being with her kids, getting to talk to her and being in her house- which i never saw coming... I have also had kinky thoughts and started fantasizing and i am trying to keep it in check cause that's what i need to do... But still...my mind wonders..

So right now my mom and i are having money troubles and i mentioned this to my dad when he called me monday night and all he could do was talk about how HE has bills due and could spend money on chicken. Then he tells me that my job isn't helping and i told him thats because i don't work in the summer. It was all i could do to NOT throw the phone across the room.  then my mom and i got into it and she pissed me off because she told me i worried more about him then her and omg. So fast forward to tonight when he calls me and leaves the same message he always leaves me, with no mention on helping us out. And its not like i ask him all the time..i don't... He is just a selfish ass who i don't even want to talk to right now...just his voice pisses me off. So for awhile i am not talking to him...it just annoys me and let's see how many times he calls that i don't answer.... More later...

Well since realizing i do have a crush on her, it is becoming apparent that i have a type. She is blonde and tall and i find myself staring at her chest...or i did when i was in her room and we would do circle time with the kids and omg... She is also very calming and she was a good teacher as i learned a lot from her and now i try not to make it so obvious when she is around... Im not sure when i realized i was crushing on her and to tell her would not be a good thing as she has a boyfriend and it would make it awkward if i were to sub for her again.. I had thought of texting her, but im not sure because i hadn't really talked to her in awhile and i don't know if it would be a weird thing to do or not...

Soo the other day, i realized that i was crushing on someone i used to work with and when i saw her the other day, and heard she had her boyfriend helping with her kids, I realized I was jealous of her boyfriend and also that meant i had a underlying crush.. Not so obvious signs- 1. When she was around I got really nervous and couldn't do the songs We were singing with the kids. 2. I found myself not really talking to her- even though i didnt a lot when i worked with her and now i am realizing why... I didn't want to get caught staring and start rambling, so a lot of the time i didn't say much... 3. When she was around I got busy doing stuff so she wouldn't think i was staring and i didn't want to mess up when she was around.. 4. Finally, i hadn't seen her since October and the first time she saw me she gave me a hug and i could smell her and feel her wet hair brush up against my cheek... Right then it was the bright spot of the morning and i couldn't s

Day 2- what does submission mean to you? Does a submissive have certain behaviors, specific tasks, what do you think of a submissive and submission? Submission for me is the idea of giving up control to someone and letting them lead things in the relationship. With my former best friend, I was naturally submissive to him and he was the dominant one, although we didn't define it that way. Even if there was something I didn't want to do, and I knew he wanted to, I would be afraid of how he felt. We would hang out and I even ended going to church with him, even though I didn't really want to, I did it to make him happy. Looking back, even though we were in no way d/s, it describes what we had. He was very calming and most of the time when we hung out, it was his idea. He was fully aware of what was going on in my mind as we would hang out one on one most of the time because I didn' t do well with crowds because of my anxiety. In my onl ine rela tionship, although it did

This is a word that I have heard before, and for some reason, my mind keeps going back to it... And since I am sitting here waiting for sub jobs to appear, why not use this as an opportunity to share what is on my mind and distract me at the same time?? The word of the day is Sapiosexual-as if you couldn't tell by the title of the blog lol.... anywho, the meaning of the word being attracted to brains over beauty.. well, after reading that and thinking for ages upon ages about it, I think it's another word that describes a part of me. So let's see...for many years, I have noticed that my attraction to others isn't so much how they look,although that does happen sometimes, most of the time when I realize I like someone, it has to do with their mind... Some examples- 1. Former best friend who has a birthday today- he played the cello and was very smart and it was after we hung out for awhile, that i slowly realized I loved being around him and even though he was cute a

So, Ive been doing some thinking and what my last few friendships were lacking was communication. With friend M-we were really close and while we talked about a lot of stuff, there was still a lot we didn't talk about. One thing we didnt talk about was how my feelings for him were growing and then finally I told him and found out he didn't feel the same way and luckily it didn't change things between us. He moved for college and we tried to keep the friendship going..and for awhile it worked...then I was tired of not hearing from him and deleted and blocked him and that was it. Looking back, I could of found out what was going on, but then, he could of too. Not once after did he text or call to see why I stopped talking to him... That was 3 years ago or so and I think of him from time to time and then I don't...So I guess I'm moving on or already did move on without realizing it. With J- I don't know what cwe had, but I was crushing on him and he knew and I

Tell the Truth 1. A friend gave you a pie touting it as a favorite family recipe, and you ate this pie and got sick–or had an allergic reaction. The friend calls a few days later to ask, “How did you like the pie?” What would you say? Honestly, it would depend on who gave the pie. I would probably tell them it was good, but explain why I don't want another one... 2. Your significant other really wants to try the “swingers’ lifestyle” but you really do not want to do this. Do you: a. Tell him/her no, you are not interested b. Do it, and go along to make her/him happy c. Say yes, because you’ll try anything once d. Say no, with no explanation and forbid your significant other from venturing into swinging. I would tell him I'm not interested and if he would like to explore further, we would have to talk about it before anything happened. 3. Have you texted nude photos to someone and had it come back to  bite you in the ass –as is someone taking revenge for your misjudgeme