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Can't get her off my mind

Soo the other day, i realized that i was crushing on someone i used to work with and when i saw her the other day, and heard she had her boyfriend helping with her kids, I realized I was jealous of her boyfriend and also that meant i had a underlying crush..

Not so obvious signs-
1. When she was around I got really nervous and couldn't do the songs We were singing with the kids.

2. I found myself not really talking to her- even though i didnt a lot when i worked with her and now i am realizing why... I didn't want to get caught staring and start rambling, so a lot of the time i didn't say much...

3. When she was around I got busy doing stuff so she wouldn't think i was staring and i didn't want to mess up when she was around..

4. Finally, i hadn't seen her since October and the first time she saw me she gave me a hug and i could smell her and feel her wet hair brush up against my cheek... Right then it was the bright spot of the morning and i couldn't stop thinking about her all day...

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