Day 2- what does submission mean to you? Does a submissive have certain behaviors, specific tasks, what do you think of a submissive and submission?
Submission for me is the idea of giving up control to someone and letting them lead things in the relationship. With my former best friend, I was naturally submissive to him and he was the dominant one, although we didn't define it that way. Even if there was something I didn't want to do, and I knew he wanted to, I would be afraid of how he felt. We would hang out and I even ended going to church with him, even though I didn't really want to, I did it to make him happy. Looking back, even though we were in no way d/s, it describes what we had. He was very calming and most of the time when we hung out, it was his idea. He was fully aware of what was going on in my mind as we would hang out one on one most of the time because I didn't do well with crowds because of my anxiety.
In my online relationship, although it didn't last very long, it felt very real. We talked every day and I tasks for my online mistress to do?. One time, I had to masturbate in the bathroom at my college and when I went back to where people were, my face was all red and I felt like everyone knew! And I loved it....another time, I had to come home and masturbate with a hairbrush before I went to sleep and I remember that I was exhausted that night and didn't want to do it, but I did...
So to answer the question lol, submission to me is to give up control to someone you trust and have it come naturally...in both cases,it felt very natural and in the last one, there were tasks involved and I knew what she expected of me. With the last one, when we didn't talk in the morning, it was very weird and didn't feel right. When we talked, even though it was on messenger,I had to ask permission to go do stuff and I loved that too... To this day, it is arousing me to think back on it...
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