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Soo..it takes a lot to turn me on..and more

So I was reading some blogs and its weird, I can handle sex scenes in erotica,  but to read  about real life sex don't really do anything for me. I get turned on occasionally,  but not very often. When I think of being with someone,  there really isn't sex involved. I just have never thought of sleeping with someone and it wasn't until I was watching big bang theory and heard Howard talking about sexing up penny's roomate, that In a way it grossed me out to hear about it and its like I sometimes get uncomfortable watching sex scenes in movies.

I think for me,  it all comes to the idea of getting to know someone first and then maybe think about sex. In a lot of ways,  I am a female Sheldon cooper. Basically I have to know and trust someone before I can become intimate or even think about it..but I'll elaborate more in the next blog post..

I have also been thinking, and a micromanaged kinky relationship isnt my cup of tea. I love reading about them in erotica,  but being told what to where,  when to do this or that,  just makes me more anxious. I was in an online relationship awhile ago and I was submissive to her and loved it. I had tasks to do and I did feel owned and hated to dissapoint her.

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