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Been thinking of old friends

I don't know why, but I keep thinking of old friends of mine..one of them i had an intense dream about even though i haven't seen him for 2 years or maybe even longer and maybe its a sign that i need to be my own best friend and i haven't been doing much of that and i don't want to see him, but every so often he shows up in my dreams and maybe its because of how close we were and how after a lack of communication after the 2nd time of reconnecting, he never reached out and i didn't either...even though it has been awhile i still wonder what it would be like to run into him- would he even say hi or amything or act like we were never friends...its something i have thought about and maybe because we haven't talked at all and i had thought of texting at one point, but honestly, if you stop communication with someone and they don't reach out, why keep it up?

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