PinkAngel2017

So just like a bag of Skittles, my submissive side comes in different colors...most of which i am learning about and some that just fascinate me. Let's see.. where to start? Red Skittles: this would include things I am fascinated by, but not sure I would actually try, but I have an interest so who knows. Yellow- This would be my switch side. I have come to realize that when i am mad at someone, i can picture them being tortured in a cage and with a leash on, or whipped until I feel better. Than, on the other side of that, i can see myself wearing a collar and being submissive to someone and doing as I'm told and asked. For many years and even when i was younger, i always hated when people were mad at me and i liked being pleasing when i was asked to do something. It has been like this in work as well. Im the type that am happy when i am told i did a good job and that people are pleased with what i did, or have been doing. Purple-i b...

So I am basically a female Sheldon Cooper... What I mean by that is... 1. I have my quirks and like things a certain way. 2. I was picked on all through school. 3. I have to know someone before I can really open up to them. 4. There are times when I just want to be by myself 5. I have various spots and routines that I don't like disrupted. 6.I hate change and like things to stay the same 7. I get very anxious before social events This is a starting point,  but its clear to me that I'm a female Sheldon cooper..

So I was reading some blogs and its weird, I can handle sex scenes in erotica,  but to read  about real life sex don't really do anything for me. I get turned on occasionally,  but not very often. When I think of being with someone,  there really isn't sex involved. I just have never thought of sleeping with someone and it wasn't until I was watching big bang theory and heard Howard talking about sexing up penny's roomate, that In a way it grossed me out to hear about it and its like I sometimes get uncomfortable watching sex scenes in movies. I think for me,  it all comes to the idea of getting to know someone first and then maybe think about sex. In a lot of ways,  I am a female Sheldon cooper. Basically I have to know and trust someone before I can become intimate or even think about it..but I'll elaborate more in the next blog post.. I have also been thinking, and a micromanaged kinky relationship isnt my cup of tea. I love reading about them in eroti...

Soo..i got a message from my girl crush asking if I'm interested in cat sitting for her... Of course i said i was and since then she has been on my mind... I'm waiting on a reply from her and since then, i keep picturing the inside of her house and her couch and for some reason my thoughts go kinky and here is just a peek into where my mind has been... "We are in her living room and her couch is white and really pretty and she has flowers all around,  and we are sitting on the couch and talking and then she starts getting closer to me and before i realize,  she is kissing my neck and after i realize what is happening,  i start kissing her and then she pushes me off her,  as i was on her lap,  and has me kneel in front of her.. She pauses for a minute and starts to take her shoes off and has me kiss her feet and then lick them... While i am busy with her feet,  she is talking to me and she pauses,  and reaches behind her and pulls out a pink velvet ...

Soo in a month or so, i am going to be babysitting for my girl crush...i have been trying not to think about it because it will make me more anxious, but i was blown away when she asked me to babysit for 3 days...😇.. My thoughts have circled around being with her kids, getting to talk to her and being in her house- which i never saw coming... I have also had kinky thoughts and started fantasizing and i am trying to keep it in check cause that's what i need to do... But still...my mind wonders..

So right now my mom and i are having money troubles and i mentioned this to my dad when he called me monday night and all he could do was talk about how HE has bills due and could spend money on chicken. Then he tells me that my job isn't helping and i told him thats because i don't work in the summer. It was all i could do to NOT throw the phone across the room.  then my mom and i got into it and she pissed me off because she told me i worried more about him then her and omg. So fast forward to tonight when he calls me and leaves the same message he always leaves me, with no mention on helping us out. And its not like i ask him all the time..i don't... He is just a selfish ass who i don't even want to talk to right now...just his voice pisses me off. So for awhile i am not talking to him...it just annoys me and let's see how many times he calls that i don't answer.... More later...

Well since realizing i do have a crush on her, it is becoming apparent that i have a type. She is blonde and tall and i find myself staring at her chest...or i did when i was in her room and we would do circle time with the kids and omg... She is also very calming and she was a good teacher as i learned a lot from her and now i try not to make it so obvious when she is around... Im not sure when i realized i was crushing on her and to tell her would not be a good thing as she has a boyfriend and it would make it awkward if i were to sub for her again.. I had thought of texting her, but im not sure because i hadn't really talked to her in awhile and i don't know if it would be a weird thing to do or not...